when the earth fell out round
rounded by sound by that big first pop
all its pores were extravasating
all its pores poured forth orange red-orange
conic booms skirting out into landmasses
extravagating into noisome jutting landmasses
and then it rained rained rained rained
and i woke up and everything around me was green and such
so alone and yet everything is me and i am rafflesias and such
when i sneeze there are thunderstorms sometimes anticlockwise typhoons
and i cough into existence gargantuan tsunamis
when i blink there are hummingbirds not humming or scissortails not scissoring
a tear or two and up go pelicans splashing dripping fishflopping
when i shuffle or rustle little fawns make joyful crackles in old brown leaves
i am sitting still now and certain monkeys are quietly on air between trees
when i sleep there are whole dozens of chipmunks dreaming of me and things like me
and i wake up and everything around is green and such
so alone and yet everything around me is me and that means i am mimosas and all
when humans grew up starlike
grounded by flesh that lowly important stop
his fingers splayed reaching for this wind and that thought
her eyes calculating the swirls of shiny orbs floating overhead
they listened to the short bird chirps contrapuntal to the melodic ones
extrapolating from their tunes possible hymns
and then it rained rained rained rained
and we woke up and everything around us is sparks and rust
so alone because everything is everywhere and plugged in and electrobuzzing
when we watch we watch projections of people faraway people ideated people
and now the projections have progressed from convex to flat square widescreen
when we embrace there are distances between our hearts
even when our bodies are together our hearts sink back pressed back lined on our spines
when we shuffle or rustle we have headphones on (little fawns are gone)
the leaves are mulched up or gathered into blackshiny bags unleapt into unrolled through
when we sleep we catch winks or collapse in heaps depressed
and when we dream we do not see them as shiny orbs floating overhead
and we wake up we run and forget to tell someones we dreamed of them
when i zoomed down spilled forth into this world
the planet blinked like it does each time
and i crawled around for a while and flattened out sandpiles
and overlooked sparrows and hit baseballs and sisters
and bible read and lost teeth and liked then loved then lost lost
and then it rained
and then i grew
listen to me love, loves:
let me sing to you:
(don't listen to just the drums
the drums are just the surface)
after the rain
when my hand is in your hand
my heart is in the center of my body in the center of earth
there are mantelsworth and crustsworths and surfacefuls of fires and rocks and rivers
flowing staying flowing 'round my heart
my feet are softly flatly on the grassy ground
my head pointing at jupiter then saturn then mars
when my toes are on your toes or near your toes
my heart is in the center of my foot
and my toes wiggle wiggling on (or at) your toes
my elbows are roughly smooth bending resting on the ground (my feet hanging upward)
watching your eyes like children watching cartoons
after the rain
when you radiantly speak of nothing not even trying to shine
i listen to your chatter even when i tap out rhythms to other songs
i listen to what you didn't say and respond with an almost hmm then an mmmhmmm
(amen with a smile)
om ohms of resistance om
i hear you when you hear
you are there you are there you are there
even when you do not speak
volumes
you are there
after the rainbows
when there is allout sunshine
when you are outside and looking upon puddles and sparkles in puddles
i am outside of that looking upon you and ripples in you
move to that
go ahead splash splash-laugh
empty that spot
splatter water wider
my foot dangles
splash-ready splash-laugh-happy
wishing to splish
allout sunshine poised
(right after rainbows)
after the sun
when wriggle things from trees
and howl or who beings from biglong branches
when light is inside our mouths until we yawn in the morning
there are wigglings in the knotty barks of my brain
contemplations hanging furrily from prehensile tails
buzzy buggy hungry ponderances spilling crawling out
beautiful copious life
beautiful unseen copious life
wrung from old tremendous gods by older more tremendous gods
before the sun
after yesterday
which is always now
which is always the only
which is only now always
i will watch high lovely people rise into the flightpaths of craterous spheres
space-quiet shined-on objects
without ladders without cranes without rockets
upfloat until they are
space-quiet shined-on objets
i will watch immersed lovely friends take deep breaths and swim down
past phytoplankton and swordfish and down under warmth
without submarines or apparatus
downdrift until they are
oceandeep quiet-shining things
which are always always
now right now
to-day
and i woke up and writhed and tossed and turned
kicking covers and exposing feet then arms thoughts jutting
you came to me in the night came on in
helloed through the darkness hilloaed through the mindspins
you lay down next to me face to face
on your right side on my left side
letting silence and caress
bring forth allusions illusions collusions elusions
conclusions interclusions (exclusions) ((occlusions)
prelusion-prolusions reclusion-seclusions
inconclusion-conclusions
us ions
charged particles
on my right side on your left side
armsful of bodies
an ear on my chest hugest heartbeats
pulsating minds
kicking jutting thoughts letting go
smiling through the darkness lipsful of lips
"i don't know" you said. "i know. i don't know." i said.
you just showed up
in the early morning
the sun in your wake
after this morning
every undrummed beat will resonate through our souls
every undrummed beat
all almost played notes half-valved breathed at
will breeze round our happy heads into the lashes 'round our wideopen eyes
all most-played notes
the multimeasured notes
the string-breaking finger-collapsing bursted chord clusters
sostenuto sostenuto sostenuti
i love you like i have never loved any other
i love you after this morning
after the sun
after the rain
after rainbows
always always always
